Sixth Post

Hello!

I'm currently in Bangkok because I got to sit for an entrance exam at Chulalongkorn University LATER at 9 am... LOL

The amount of preparation for this test: probably 4%? Like 死 percent.

So far I've met Butter, Fifa, Wut, Prem, Pim and Wayap ^.^ Yesterday (5th May), I got to go to the Bang Kae district which is like Western Bangkok... totally inaccessible by mass transportation. Thankfully Pim drove Wayap and me around ^_^

In the land of ปัดไม่หมด, whenever I typed "What's up ;)", it's like I'm totally ignored. I mean, don't Thais know what "What's up?" means? It's as if it's a "Hi" to them when it really should be a "How are you?" or "What are you doing?".

FRUSTRATING :@


Another thing is the place I'm putting up as is very nice, but there seems to be a major communication breakdown between me and the host. I'm a guest after all, and I've yet to observe enough care in hosting me. Despite assuring me that he would be at home all the time and thus there is no need to make another key to his apartment, I have been made to wait for him downstairs at the lobby just so that I could finally have access to his apartment when I came back from outside. Besides this, if I were expecting my guest to be waiting at the lobby and I found that he wasn't there when I returned, I would have messaged him to ask where he was. Coupled with my shitty Thai and slow processing of Thai speech! I tried making conversation with him a few times, but he seems to be a man of few words.

To be fair, he had been very nice to accommodate me literally and also my retarded communication with him. I am a picky eater and always consider my food's value-for-money index, and he had to wait for me to decide on what food to have on my first night. He also seemed to show more attention and care just one hour ago. Maybe he's having a bad day. I don't know.


Another thing is some retrospection of myself. Surely, the number of good-looking people and the extent of good looks in Thailand are much higher and larger. Witnessing and even interacting with some made me realise how inept I am aesthetically, especially when I'm putting on more and more weight. I ponder what other I can offer -- my wit, personality, intellect? When I meet good-looking people, I feel very, very demoralised inside because if superficiality played a major role in one's relationship, I think I am not really able to sustain it. This drives me to wish for some nice woman to come into my life further, to just lead me onto another path free from all those insecurities and pain......
Well, I'm probably at the age where I am seriously contemplating my future socially. I can't remain unmarried up to my thirties. It'd be horrible.

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I did see a very pretty woman selling fruits yesterday morning at the market :) sigh...............



Samuel

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